July 2006

Breaking up is kind of like the death of a loved one…

When it happens u know u will never see that person again, u will never talk to that person again. Nothing can ever be the same. But u have to move on, because u are still breathing. Your heart still beats, though it is broken.

The same can be said for death and for break-ups.


The clouds move on, the earth turns grey;
The happiness I felt, has quickly gone away;
The whisper of the wind, seems to call my name;
I try to respond, but it seems I’m not the same;

Time elapses slowly, into the universe;
It’s definitely not a pleasure, nor is it a curse;
Nothing seems to matter, no one seems to care;
I reached out to touch you, but you’re not really there;

Everything I see, and everything I feel;
Sometimes seems like a dream, where nothing there is real;
I grasp onto reality, and try to play this game;
But every single thing, always remains the same;

The mist is finally fading, the truth is here to stay;
The illusions are finally passing, the lies have gone away;
But reason cannot save me, tears will not heal;
I’ve giving it some time, to see what will be revealed;

No one has the answers, no one holds the key;
I’m wishing for a miracle, that you’d belong to me;
Until then, I’m lost with my solitude..

well ok just got free from my assignments.. thought to update my blog.. today was a hectic day.. yar im not able to sleep properly since many days.. i donno why is that.. i touch my bed at 3 mostly…n then it takes abt 1 to 2 hrs for me to sleep.. i wake at around 12 noon.. isnt it tiring.. i hardly sleep for 3 to 4 hrs.. 

The same happened today.. i slept at 4am.. woke at 11.. went univ to discuss my thesis title.. its not decided yet… anyways.. NEWs OF THE DAY! (Sajjad is committed 🙂 ).. chalo finally someone is committed :p .. am waiting for my turn lolz.. phr phr phr came home at 3.. had lunch prayed jumma.. was trying to take a nap.. but aaah! my naend.. 😦 .. kher after Asar i slept for like 2 hrs..

Bas this is it for today.. just submitted my ACC quiz.. gonna go out with dad to buy some stuff..

ok now here’s onething i was thinking all the day long.. why do ppl claim for such things that they are not able to do.. for example, i have seen alot of people saying “tum aur bas tum, tumharay ilawa hum kisi ke nai hosaktay..kisi ka soch nai saktay” but when they r rejected by him/her they find someone we call “SAHARA” .. why is that? do we always need someone with us? n if yes, then why do we have to claim such things.. i might be sounding offensive to many, im sorry abt that.. anyways..

here’s a little survey i took,..

What is your first name? Sonia
Who do you live with? mom dad
Do you have your own room? yup.
Do you have a cell phone? Yes. nokia 3230
Did you ever have a mental breakdown? Regularly.
Do you have a boyfriend? yup
Do you have a crush? does he know? Yes. Yes.
Where did you take ur last vacation to? last vacation we went punjab.
Who is your best friend(s)? well got many good friends
What was the last movie you seen in the theaters? hehe “jo dar gaya woh mar gaya” :p
What was the last movie you watched? well well well..hmmm let me think.. it was FANA i guess
Do you watch the OC? No.
Did you see the house of wax? Did you like it? No
What shirt are you wearing? sea green.
What pants are you wearing? same.
What make up are you wearing? None.
Do you have any pets? what? i dont like pets.
When was the last time you wore a skirt? uhh… dont remember
Do you play any sports what? i used to play bedminton.
Do you think that gay couples should get married? If they want. what can i say :S
What age do you wanna get married at? 23 or 24.
How do you wanna die? at what age? Easily. aah.. age? cant say..
When was the last time one of your friends stabbed u in the back? dont remember.. 
When was the last time you flirted with someone? Last night! hehehe just kidding..
Are you wearing a belt? which one? Nope.
Did you ever get called a slut? were you mad? No.
How old are you? 21
How tall are you? 5’4”
Are you pretty crazy? Pretty much.

“If you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all.”

Read this story somewhere… The story is simple but the underlying philosophy is wonderful.. When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 Hours in a day are not enough, remember this story of mayonnaise jar and the coffee.

A professor stood before his Philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous “yes.”
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things – your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions -things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.  The sand is everything else–the small stuff. If you put the sand into the jar first” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. “I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a cup of coffee with a friend.”

today was a  hectic day.. went to campus to collect my handouts.. had a chat with sir latif.. phr all the routine stuff.. got busy with assignments later on.. today was bonus date of human comp interface assignment..

aah! im in love with its themes.. they r sooo cool n simple.. i hope i stick to it now.. previously i had a few blogs.. but were never satisfied or maybe coz of my nature that i cant stick to one thing.. 

this file upload option in wordpress is simply great.. 

anyways will try n post regularly.. i dont think i wud be able to.. but let’s see…